If anyone brings it up in front of Ma Mouse, I will deny it, but I have come to the conclusion that all my good fortune of late has likely been the result of my desire to be a better mouse.
The past year has been rough and I cannot state that I have often made the best decisions or been the best person, but I never did anything out of malice. Somehow, despite guilt and regret, I have strived to be a stronger mouse, better friend, and all without any desire to have that reciprocated in any way.
I don’t have a belief system, but the results of this outlook have been astounding and overall only made me want to be more of a good mouse. I see life as a physics experiment in which an action causes a reaction and good or bad - it is what it is. Though in life what the results have been that a good action creates a better situation for Your Mouse.
This is the philosophy that Ma Mouse ever so diligently tried to drill into my head while I defiantly saw her as foolish for waisting her time not looking out for herself/us. Her kindness always seemed like a weakness to me and while I still do not fully share her way of being, I can appreciate the truth behind it far more than when I was a rebellious youth.
I will still never let her know that, though.
Happy Birthday, Ma Mouse. I love you and thanks.